Sunday, May 26, 2002
Wow...havent been here in forever. Well a lot has happened. My brother graduated. Kinda sad...my best friend also graduated and she is moving to another state in a month or so. But then she is going to college about 3 hours away. so its all good. Edwin Mccain is coming to the house of blues so that makes me overly happy. i have a summer full of working then i get to see edwin. and in june there is somethign called beachfest, its a christian convention and audio adrenalin is gunna be there along with toby mack (from dc talk) and kirk franklin and also point of grace adn the catinas. its going to be great! school got over with last week and i think i did pretty good on my exams...not to sure. there is this guy named adam who i used to date back in the day. and every three or so months he will call me to do something with him...and being the silly girl i am i say yes cuz secretly i am still in love with him. Why? you might ask...i dont' know. well thats it for now.Sunday, May 12, 2002
There is a guy named Nick who gives me bad feelings...like he is stalking me or something. He is really nice though and he asked me to be his g/f but I said no due to my own reasons. I had to work today. Made about 40. Not to shabby for a Sunday. I went and saw my friend James last night at the Lazy i. He did very well for his first time. I really enjoy listening to him play. I saw my grandfather today. He is not doing well...infact he hasn't been since WWII was over. Something happened to him while he was over there....yes he was shot in the mouth but there has to be more because he is really messed up. I really want to know about his experience in WWII...I don't want all his secrets dying with them. I want to be able to tell his stories to my grandchildren. I am afraid to ask him because of what happened to him while he was there...hes one of the soldiers who gave all. Well thats all for tonight. I am going to bed.Thursday, May 02, 2002
Today in US History we watched a documentary on Pearl Harbor. War is so sad. Though I really haven't seen a war it has still affected my life. Weird. School was good today...came home with a bad headache and i went to sleep. about 7:00 i wake up (and i think its morning) and i ask myself why i went to sleep with my makeup and clothes on. I also question why its so light outside. Then i realize that its not morning...thank the Lord. Today was National Day of Prayer and I have not found myself praying. Only that God would guard my heart from evil boys. My friend Amy wrote a guy (James) a letter telling him she liked him. He wrote her back. I thought that was very very awesome and sweet. The foreign people are coming to work at my work soon...people from Scotland, Ireland, Romania, Armenia, Latvia, Germany and many more places. They are so wonderful and i learn so much from them. I am really looking forward to a summer packed with headrattling languages that are all being spoken at once. Anyways. Nothin else.Wednesday, May 01, 2002
Got back from church, it was really good tonight. There really wasn't a lesson just a lot of praise and worship. There was also a video on sexual purity. It was blunt and to the point..i wish i would have seen it sooner. Well time for bed. more blogging later.
I have noticed over the last couple of days a lot that i have never noticed. Like how wonderful it is to walk where there is grass and when the sun is shining. How your best friend really isn't your best friend and how you cannot always win even when you have nothing and the other person has everything. I have also learned a lot in the last couple days. Your mom is ALWAYS right. God is more awesoem that i ever imagined...i owe so much to Him. and that people aren't going to hurt you...to much. There is a guy named Sam. He is really really nice. He is from Washington..has some Romanian connection...not sure how though. He is just so great to talk to. Last night a guy told me that i would be a great person to snuggle with and go to sleep with (not sex wise). I didn't know if i should take this as a compliment...you snuggle with your dog...i dunno. My friend in NY hasn't emailed me or snail mailed me...or anything. I think it really is time to let go. Apart from all this learning and realization i like to read...and i am reading a book about a girl who goes into the navy or something like that. Looks good. Church is tonigiht...and i have to clean off the counter...so i will be gone. God Bless and Good night.Sunday, April 28, 2002
Another day...sunday to be exact. I made under 20 dollars today..very bad. I had a total of 3 tables. I found out my friend isn't exactly a good friend..she likes to flirt with a guy i like and other things that arent to friend like. i don't know. talkin to james ...well kinda. hes not exactly talking...but neither am i =)im tired,...have school tomorrow...and im rambling about absolutly nothing. i don't have interesting blogs like other people. maybe becuase i have nothin interesting in my life....hm...oh well.Saturday, April 27, 2002
My aunt and uncle and cousin are down...and we hung out lotso fun. Um talkin to James right now...about big scary guys on his wall. I made 74 dollars today ( i work at Johnny Rockets, you can say im a dancer haha...) um im tired very tired. My sister has a temp of 100.9...not good. Brain (the guy i went to prom with and who works with me) and kathy (a girl who works with me) are "dating" but its a big joke and noone knows except me and my brother. its not really funny..they don't know i know. oh well. im getting bored. so bye byeFriday, April 26, 2002
James and I hung out it was very very fun. It is great to be able to talk to a guy without having to worry about the awkwardness of being with a guy...know what I mean? He is very talented in the way of music and his dad is so nice and funny. My family and I went out for dinner and we talked a little...things are getting a bit better as planned. I have a big project due in Phys. Science..so I am gunna work on that. I get to work tomorrow also...yay =)
Well this is my first blog entry. Last night me and my mom got into the biggest fight ever. I cried and cried and cried...I have no idea what I am supposed to do. I am a good kid...I don't drink, do drugs, smoke, have sex...but it seems as if she still isn't happy with me. She said that she wanted to die...how am I...a 17 year old... supposed to deal with that?